Memoirs of a Tantrika

The Official Blog for Charu, founder of Embody Tantra

Archive for September, 2008

‘Walk the Line’~Tantra Style…

This week we are exploring this Sutra:

“Unminding Mind, Be in the Middle, until….”
~Shiva / Vighyan Bhairav Tantra

Have you ever noticed how wherever you go, there you are?

Some of us, during times of extreme pain or transition will make huge shifts in the way we live our lives. Someone who has always been in long-term relationships may renounce them and start having casual sex, another who has always been sloppy will become a total neat-freak. A TV watching, over-eating depressive will discover spirituality and completely re-vamp their life.

For me, the first time I remember making a choice like this was when my first boyfriend broke up with me for my best friend. The burn was so intense, I had never known so much pain in my body. At 14 years old I vowed never to be in a relationship again until I knew I found the man I would marry. I was certain that with this new life I would experience a different kind of happiness, and more importantly, avoid this cutting pain.

If you are anything like me, some time will pass in this new life you have created and you will think to yourself that you have truly made a change, not only that…you will discover that you are a genius! You have figured out what is wrong with everyone else’s life! As for me at 14, I loved flaunting my new freedom and telling all of my friends how their illusions of love would soon be shattered and they would see my wisdom in being relationship-free.

Five minutes, several months or 100 years later you wake up, look in the mirror and see yourself. The very same self that you thought you had left behind when you found this new path. Shit. You haven’t changed, you just brought yourself into a new story, a different extreme. The qualities you had longed to release have simply found new ways of manifesting within this new construct.

Major Bummer.

“Unminding mind, be in the middle, until…”

This week in the Friday class we will explore the middle. Beyond the extremes and efforts to choose one thing over another and thereby solve all of our problems, we will embrace the full spectrum and find the truth in the middle.

One of the things that I love about Tantra is that it asks us to ‘walk the line’. We are challenged through the meditations to release our ideas of ‘right and wrong’, ‘light and dark’, ‘yes and no’, even ‘love and hate’. In doing this we have the opportunity to find ‘the middle’.

Most of us avoid the middle because in the middle the mind dies. There is nothing to tell stoies about and no drama to play out. Very different than what we are used to. We have the possibility of truly experiencing this moment, embracing all of what is and finding the middle where there is simple, uncomplicated pleasure and peace.

Weekly Meditation:

  • Watch for moments in your daily life when you find yourself moving to an extreme. For ex. you have been trying to eat only healthy foods and you finally decide to say ‘fuck it’ and get an ice cream. Simply watch yourself and your relationship to the extremes. We have become dependent on them to remind us hat we are alive. That dependency has kept us from the true essence of what is available to us in this life.

  • Once you have found this moment…pause. Watch yourself in your minds-eye. Watch how you swing from one extreme to the other, become aware of the sensations that accompany this. Then, drop the story that surrounds the moment, and bring your attention to your breath. If the story tries to barge in, just let it float away and keep your attention on feeling the inhale and exhale dance in and out of your body.

  • Rest here in the middle and see how different it feels. (Warning: you may find that the mind gets louder than ever…this means you are on the right track…it is fighting for your attention).


This will introduce you to the simplicity and sweetness of the middle path.

in love,

Charu
323.363.3135
www.embodytantra.com
https://memoirsofatantrika.wordpress.com/
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Re-Sensitize and Experience Deeply…

This week we will explore this Sutra:

“Feel the cosmos as a translucent ever-living presence.”
~Shiva / Vighyan Bhairav Tantra

One thing I am examining at the moment is the feeling of seperate-ness. The absolute cutting feeling of isolation and loneliness that most of us live with thinly disguised by an understanding that the universe is greater than just us. For many of us, this understanding comes purely from our minds, from something that we have read, heard or seen that resonated with us. We took it on because it made us feel slightly less alone.

In some ways, this idea has held us back. It has kept us from coming in contact with the feeling of separation that is the gateway to an experience of our alone-ness. Once we taste the sweetness of our alone-ness we can begin to truly experience the full-circle…the truth that alone-ness and oneness are the same.

But don’t believe this just because I say it’s so…come to class tonight and experience what is keeping you seperate from the ‘translucent, ever-living cosmos’. Recognize your own body as a micro-universe and allow yourself to be penetrated by this presence of the cosmos- experience the oneness.

That part of you that is longing for the ‘perfect partner’ to come along and cure your lonliness may wake up to the reality that what you seek is available to you in every moment… What a relief!

Weekly Meditation:

  • Take a moment to sit quietly and allow your inner-critic (yes, the one you have been trying to shut-up for the last ten years) to go wild. Become deeply in contact with all of the things you hate about yourself.
  • Drop the images and words and allow yourself to feel the isolation.
  • Magnify the feeling of isolation and dive into the center of it.
  • Experience the sensations in your body
  • Rest for 5-10 minutes

This will begin to show your body that what you have been avoiding is actually your greatest teacher and a super-highway to the truth.

in love,

Charu
323.363.3135
www.embodytantra.com
https://memoirsofatantrika.wordpress.com/
embody truth, embody love…embody tantra

Sex and Light…

This week we will explore this Sutra:

“Consider your essence as light rays rising from center to center up the vertebrae, and so rises ‘livingness’ in you.”
~Shiva / Vighyan Bhairav Tantra

I am inspired by this sutra because I feel it addresses a big question for everyone about Tantra…what does sex have to do with spirit and how can I discover the best of both?

In this class we will explore our arousal…awakening the lower chakras and connecting with the power of our sexuality. Then we will begin to invite that energy to penetrate our entire body in the form of light.

Most of us are fragmented in our bodies…we are talking heads, or if we are lucky we can even connect our head to our heart…but we are cut off from the lower half of our bodies. Our arousal and sexuality and life force move within us, but they are often caught in a ‘holding pattern’. We continue to follow our sexual impulses, but we receive little lasting satisfaction from our encounters and they often leave us drained.

By releasing the blocks in the body we make way for the sexual life-force energy to rise up the spine. This translates as a genuine connection to the divine and an experience of aliveness flowing through our entire body. Many of us are longing for this connection, but we are lacking in the tools to pave the way towards experiencing this.

Weekly Meditation:

  • Sitting comfortably, imagine being made love to in the most delicious way possible. Allow the fantasy to be fun, sexy, nasty…whatever it is that truly begins to awaken your genitals. (Try doing this without touching yourself).
  • Once you are aroused, give up the fantasy and relax completely. You can stay sitting or lay down. Allow the aliveness that you have awakened to move through your body without interfering.

*If you are working with a partner, you can do step 1 by sharing the fantasies with each other. Allow one partner to share fully, without interruption and then the other partner shares. Move to step 2 without any talking or touching.

This will begin to show your body what is possible when you allow the arousal to ripen within you, rather than expressing it through orgasm.

in love,

Charu
323.363.3135
www.embodytantra.com
https://memoirsofatantrika.wordpress.com/
embody truth, embody love…embody tantra