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FREE Telesummit . Tantric Women in Relationship

September 29, 2009 at 1:47 am · Filed under Self-discovery, Tantric Tips, tantric life, tantric sex, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , , ,

I am so excited to announce that TOMORROW, Tuesday 4pm PST I will be beginning an amazing Telesummit featuring interviews with Tantric Women in Relationships.

The goal of this series is to explore how the wisdom of Tantra translates into modern relationships.  It is intended to inspire both women who are in relationship and those who are not by opening their eyes to the possibilities (men are more than welcome to listen too).   I was moved to do this series because of my own awakenings and challenges in relationship.

Through Tantra I have seen and experienced possibilities between two people that are completely out of the context of our societies model for relationship.  This delights me and it also raises new questions.  I see this series as paving a new path of possibilities for women who have seen only limited openings in relationship and also women like me who are dedicated to their personal practice, dedicated to living intimacy and longing for sisters on the journey.

Tomorrow’s interview will be with a beloved teacher and friend of mine, Antoinette Asimus of Tantra Heart www.tantraheart.com.  She and her Husband Richard discovered Tantra in 1996 after 29 years of marriage and have been practicing and teaching ever since.  My experience of them is loving and vibrant and perhaps most impressive is that they wake every morning together for their Tantra lovemaking practice… I am sure Antoinette will share more about that tomorrow…

You can register for all 5 interviews of this telesummit (yes for FREE) at www.tantricwomeninrelationship.blogspot.com.

I am truly excited to uncover the wisdom that these incredible women have to share.  I hope you will join me.

In love,

Charu

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Beyond Clitoral Orgasms…

August 4, 2009 at 3:05 am · Filed under Personal Stories, Self-discovery, tantric life, tantric sex, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , , , , ,

My Story of Re-Sensitizing my Vagina:

I was one of those women who, once I figured out how to have a clitoral orgasm (not until I was about 14 AND it was my boyfriend who encouraged me to touch myself…I said, ‘no, it will only feel good to me if you touch me’… where did I get that idea?)  Once I did figure out how to pleasure myself and how fucking great it was, I practically made a career out of it.  Thus, it was very easy for me to experience orgasm via my clitoris.

Up until about 4 years ago when my beloved and I got together, I had rarely, if ever, experienced vaginal orgasm, although I had begun to experience ‘full body orgasm’ through my Tantra practice without any stimulation from outside of me at all, simply from practicing the simplest meditations.

So, I was beginning to explore my body in new ways and I was curious and confused about why I was not very sensitive on the inside of my vagina.

When I got together with my love, I told him, ‘let’s try something new, I would like you to steer clear of my clitoris and I will too…I want to see what else I am feeling when you are making love with me’.  This was a great decision and we did it for more than a year.

What opened up inside of me was amazing.  I began to become more and more aware of the sensations in my vagina and within days…literally (now remember, I already had a developed Tantra practice, I was ripe for this) I was experiencing vaginal orgasm in many different ways.  As time went on, I began to experience waves of orgasm almost throughout the duration of our lovemaking, I learned how to relax into the waves until I was able to drop into TOTAL presence.  A feeling as if I was sitting in the bindu (center) point of orgasm, orgasm was expansive and never-ending rather than intense and explosive.  I also began to become so sensitive to him, and him to me, that I could feel and ride the waves of orgasm within his body, I even began to experience orgasm the moment he entered me, a wash of union… and this feeling would run through his body and mine together.

Now, that I have become more sensitive to all of the sensations, I bring in my clitoris when it feels right.  It is far less often than before and in many ways less interesting.  I share this with you because what I have discovered is AMAZING and possible for every woman.  The best part is that I don’t for a moment believe that I have discovered everything.  I continue to expand and I can’t wait to discover even more of what is possible in my own body and with my beloved.

Diana Richardson speaks at length about re-sensitizing in her book, ‘Tantric Orgasm for Women’. This book was a huge part of me learning to trust the natural intuitions that I had, even though many of them were in direct conflict with what I had learned through cosmopolitan magazine and how I had come to define myself sexually.

Are you ready to begin your tantric journey?

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For women in distant places:

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http://awakentoyourbody.blogspot.com/

Want to use this article? You can as long as you include the following: Charu Morgan has dedicated her life to Tantra. Over the past 10 years she has studied and shared Tantra worldwide. Best-known for her candid Memoirs of a Tantrika blog and her down-to-earth approach, she is committed to educating modern minds on the ancient secrets of Tantra through coaching, events & home-study courses. If you would like to discover how Tantra can Transform your life, register online for the Memoirs of a Tantrika weekly ezine at www.embodytantra.com and receive your free audio report Better Sex, Richer Life through Tantra.

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Hidden Behind Your Conditioned Behavior is the Best Orgasm You Have Ever Had

July 28, 2009 at 2:38 am · Filed under Personal Stories, Self-discovery, tantric life, tantric sex, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , , , , , ,

So much of how we are showing up sexually has been implanted by ideas from our friends, magazines, society.  So little of it is coming from within.  In fact, most of us have no idea how we would behave sexually if we had not been guided by these external forces.  Everything from the idea of what an orgasm should look like, to how often we should have them, to what our lover should do to give them to us, to how big or hard their penis should be or what is the best shape for her breasts.

What I have found is that actually what I have truly been craving sexually, what some small part of me deep inside has been calling for, was actually almost completely different than what I thought I wanted and how I was operating sexually.

For example, I used to be very attached to my explosive clitoral orgasm and I would often get into patterns with the men I was with where I would basically demand that they go down on me and bring me to an orgasm before I took them inside of me.  It was always ‘my turn first’ as it were, and I considered myself to be lucky to have partners who were willing to ‘make sure that I was satisfied’…

As I began to become more in tune with the messages in my body, that began to feel less authentic and I found myself opening up in different ways… I even noticed when I did follow that old pattern, I would become wet, but in some ways my vagina would be tight when I took my lover inside of me, rather than warm and open and receptive.  I noticed that it was when my lover paid attention to my breasts that my vagina would actually become totally receptive so that when I did take him inside of me, I was sensitive to him and I felt like I was inviting him in to a rich landscape.  My vagina would become so sensitive in fact, that I ultimately became orgasmic from the moment he entered my body.

This was a huge shift and it came not only from allowing myself to listen to the messages of my body, but also from giving myself permission to do it differently.  The book Tantric Orgasm for Women played a huge part in me discovering that I was not alone in this and reading it helped me to give myself permission to try things radically differently and say ‘yes’ to the voice inside of me.

Again, it is when we begin to truly connect within that we are able to hear these messages that we have overridden for most of our lives.

Want to use this article? You can as long as you include the following: Charu Morgan has dedicated her life to Tantra. Over the past 10 years she has studied and shared Tantra worldwide. Best-known for her candid Memoirs of a Tantrika blog and her down-to-earth approach, she is committed to educating modern minds on the ancient secrets of Tantra through coaching, events & home-study courses. If you would like to discover how Tantra can Transform your life, register online for the Memoirs of a Tantrika weekly ezine at www.embodytantra.com and receive your free audio report Better Sex, Richer Life through Tantra.

Upcoming Events with Charu

Beginner Tantra for Couples

Sunday August 9th 6pm . Culver City
$100 per couple / $75 when you register before July 26th
click here to register:
http://embodytantra.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=4317052

Evening of Awakening . Puja Ritual
Saturday August 15th 7-11pm
$60 per person / $50 if registered before Aug 1st
click here to learn more & register
http://eveningofawakening.blogspot.com/

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The Secret to Great Sex

July 24, 2009 at 8:19 pm · Filed under Self-discovery, Tantric Meditations, Tantric Tips, men's sexuality, tantric life, tantric sex, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , ,

It has become clear to me that no matter what the exact issue that brings a client through my door, everyone is grasping for the secret to having a deeply fulfilling experience in lovemaking.

People often want to believe or are searching out a technique that, once learned will finally satisfy their partner and transform their experience.

…and there are some techniques out there that are interesting and worth exploring, but the big secret is that great sex does not come from learning something you can ‘do’ differently.  It comes from how intimate you are with yourself.

Our culture has little tolerance for dedicating any time or energy to fully experiencing our bodies because we have become so result oriented.  God forbid we step away from our computer and the possibility of accomplishing one more thing, in order to nourish ourselves!

If we do take the time to nourish ourselves, it comes in the form of a spa treatment, a nice meal out, a ball-game, a Yoga class, etc.  And all of these things are WONDERFUL!  But how many of them really turn you on?  I mean how much of your life touches you in your sex?  Seriously, take a moment to think about it.  When you are not engaged in having sex what percentage of your life are you experiencing the wholeness of yourself including your sexuality?

…I thought so.  Way too little.

The worst part is that we have almost no experience of the potential of our bodies, no relationship to our own sexuality (other than a few goal-oriented masturbation sessions), and yet, we expect our partner to be able to satisfy us and take us to new heights… and if they can’t, we whisper about it to our friends and long for our partner to change.

The good news is that getting in touch with your body and your sexuality is EASY.  Yes, it is.  Whew!  All it takes is a curiosity, an investment in those possibilities that you feel within you, but often don’t listen to.

Try this:

Take the time for a walk in the park or on the beach, while you are there, take a moment to pause and be silent.  Allow yourself to notice what you feel through each sense in your body.  What do you smell?  How does the air feel when it touches your skin?  What colors and shapes do you see?  Sounds do you hear?  Allow yourself to truly absorb all of the sensations of the moment and through this begin to discover something new inside yourself and your relationship to all things.

“All around you, in every moment, The world is offering a feast for your senses.  Songs are playing, tasty food is on the table, Fragrances are in the air, Colors fill the eyes with light.

You who long for union, Attend this banquet with loving focus.  The outer and the inner worlds open to each other…”

~Vighyan Bhirav Tantra as translated by Lorin Roche Ph.D. http://lorinroche.com/

It is so simple that it is almost deceptive because we are not accustomed to allowing life to be simple.

And it is from this place of truly feeling ourselves in a new way, and coming into intimate contact with the world within and without that the great secret to lovemaking is revealed: attunement.

Yup.  No special technique, no following steps 1,2,3 and boom!  As you become more intimate with yourself you will naturally become more intimate with the world.  As you become more intimate with the world you will begin to notice how to simply allow yourself to come into an attunement with this moment in your body.  As you attune to the moment, you become more sensitive to, and can easily attune to your partner.  It is from this place that true lovemaking happens.

As you become more and more sensitive, you will even begin to ‘hear’ what your partners body is telling you.  A longing for a caress here, an invitation for a deeper more vigorous movement, a call to slow down, and so on.  You become one of those rare people that you have heard of in the myths that friends have told you about that past lover who just magically knew what to do, how to touch and who drove them wild.

You can only become aware of these responses in your partner, you can only come into this level of attunement when you have an intimate relationship with yourself.

In many ways you will practice this attunement in every moment of your life.  Life becomes your greatest lover, even just the breath moving in and out of the body is recognized as the sweet pleasure that it is, and sharing with another human being is a delicious expression of this loving.

Want to use this article? You can as long as you include the following: Charu Morgan has dedicated her life to Tantra. Over the past 10 years she has studied and shared Tantra worldwide.  Best-known for her candid Memoirs of a Tantrika blog and her down-to-earth approach, she is committed to educating modern minds on the ancient secrets of Tantra through coaching, events & home-study courses.  If you would like to discover how Tantra can Transform your life, register online for the Memoirs of a Tantrika weekly ezine at www.embodytantra.com and receive your free audio report Better Sex, Richer Life through Tantra.

Upcoming Events with Charu

Beginner Tantra for Couples

Sunday August 9th 6pm . Culver City
$100 per couple / $75 when you register before July 26th
click here to register:

Evening of Awakening . Puja Ritual

Saturday August 15th 7-11pm
$60 per person / $50 if registered before Aug 1st
click here to learn more & register
http://eveningofawakening.blogspot.com/

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How to Unlock Your Potential for Pleasure

July 7, 2009 at 6:18 pm · Filed under Tantric Tips, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , , , , , , , ,

FREE Teleclass for Women

When: Friday, July 10th 1pm PST/ 2pm MST/ 4pm EST

How to Unlock Your Potential for Pleasure OVERNIGHT and Re-discover Richness & Passion in Your Relationship to Yourself, Your Loved Ones & Your Life!

As many of you know, I have dedicated my life to the study and practice of Tantra. I have seen the Tantric practices simply, almost magically transform the lives and relationships of many, many people. You will learn the tools that have been practiced for thousands of years to simply and effectively tune into the deep wisdom of the body and effortlessly allow that wisdom to become a guiding force in your life.

On the 75-minute call, you’ll discover:

* The exact tools you can use immediately to clear blocks in your body and awaken a flow of orgasmic energy accessible to you in EVERY moment….in just one Tantra session I have seen these tools; save couples relationships, free women from pain or numbness during intercourse, shift body-image issues, and literally awaken the beauty in every woman I have shared them with.

* How these practices will easily break through deep-rooted habitual patterns – in a way that will integrate shifts and changes into your life immediately – something that many therapists & healers are unaware of

* How to uncover an inner wisdom that has been all but lost in our modern culture. Yes, right now you have untapped information you aren’t even aware of…After this call, you’ll know what reveals this wisdom and how to live with ease, heal your body and have better sex by ‘tuning in’ to it.

* How to move beyond your limited experience of pleasure. Even if you are sexually savvy or you are having great sex, what is possible within your body is rarely understood or experienced in our modern times

* The very best part of unlocking your potential for pleasure has very little to do with the great sex you will be having- that is the gravy – the best part is the fulfillment, the confidence, the aliveness and the love you experience within yourself

In love,
Charu

How to Register

Space is limited for the “How to Unlock Your Potential for Pleasure OVERNIGHT and Re-discover Richness & Passion in Your Relationship to Yourself, Your Loved Ones & Your Life!” teleseminar so register by clicking this link now:

http://potentialforpleasure.blogspot.com/

PS– This call could be a turning point in your life – the moment you release who you think you should be and wake up to the woman that you are.

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Tantra, Break-ups & FREE Stuff… Oh My!

May 13, 2009 at 9:49 pm · Filed under Tantric Meditations, Tantric Tips, tantric sex, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , ,

Exciting news! I have been working with my dear friend Lisa Steadman, relationship coach extraordinaire and best selling author, to create some special courses specifically looking at how Tantra can support women who are experiencing a breakup. It was an immediate ‘click’ for us to work together because of how powerful Tantric meditation can be to support you in creating a strong, loving and authentic relationship with yourself, which is a key part of the process when experiencing a broken heart.

Together Lisa and I created a special teleclass ‘How to Heal Your Heart with Tantra’. Discover how tantra can heal your heart and ease any post-breakup burdens lingering in your body. In this audio interview, I explain what Tantra is, why it can help you and teach a simple exercise using guided meditation, breath and movement techniques to help you re-discover the wisdom of the body and uncover deeper and deeper levels of forgiveness, healing, and peace.

The best part is that you can have this audio class for FREE! Hooray!

Here’s how:

Lisa has a brand new book coming out today that will seriously rock your world if you’re going through a breakup or struggling to heal and move on from past heartbreak. She is offering her brand new workbook along with a bundle of incredible bonus gifts (including How to Heal Your Heart with Tantra) worth 100 times the investment — and you can have it ALL for less than $16!

But to get the workbook AND bonus gifts, you must act now. She’s only making this offer for the first 24 hours.

To get all the juicy details, go here:

www.itsabreakupnotabreakdownworkbook.com

Thank you all so much for your support as Embody Tantra grows and expands! Of course, Tantra is good for a lot more than just helping you through a breakup… let us know what is coming up in your life and areas where you would like to learn more about how Tantra can support you!

Why not start by attending one of this month’s upcoming Tantra events? (see below for details)

in love,

Charu

‘The Longing Puja’

May Tantra Puja Ritual Saturday May 16th 6-10pm (singles and couples welcome) $60 per person/ $50 if you register before MIDNIGHT TONIGHT! click here to register http://embodytantra.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=3521066

What is a Tantra Puja?

A Puja is a prayer. In Tantra, our prayer is recognizing the divine in every human being, our temple is the body. In a Puja ritual each man will have the opportunity to partner with each woman for a simple exercise or meditation. The Tantric meditations use breath, movement, sound, and guided meditation to enrich each meeting throughout the ceremony. Attending Couples may choose to work solely with each other. *there is no nudity or sexual contact in the class

‘The Pathway to Conscious Relationship & Lovemaking’

*a special teleclass for women

Many of us have never been made love to in the way that we intuitively know is possible. We assume that our lover should be able to show us the way…

Sadly, because of this we often find ourselves with lovers who can only meet us where we are at emotionally, mentally & physically and we never experience what lies beyond our personal decided limitations. In order to receive what we are truly longing for in a partnership and to experience the kind of lovemaking that is deeply nourishing and bonding we need to begin to create that pathway within ourselves first.

Join Charu on this special Tele-class where you will be guided into a deep meditation where to meet your own inner-lover and begin to discover the true potential that lovemaking holds as a tool for healing and transformation. The best part is that by practicing this meditation, not only are you creating a space to be met by the lover of your dreams, but you are also learning to love and embrace yourself in such a way that ultimately all neediness dissolves.

You will discover a feeling of completeness and an experience of pleasure from within. From this place, you are empowered to choose a partner who can truly show up for you rather than accepting scraps from those who cannot truly see or appreciate who you are.

May 18th 7-8pm

*Don’t worry if you can’t make it to the LIVE teleseminar / everyone who registers will receive a recording of the meditation to practice with! $59.97 / Register by WEDNESDAY for $29.95 click here to register http://embodytantra.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=4337539 be one of the first 10 to register and receive: *FREE 20 Minute Phone Consultation with Charu ($42 value)

Beginner Tantra for Couples

June 11th 7pm-9:30pm $100 per couple/ $75 when registered before MAY 21st click here to register

http://embodytantra.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=4317052

Honor your partnership by spending a special evening connecting and sharing your deep gratitude and love for one another.

Not only will ‘Beginner Tantra for Couples’ class be more adventurous than your typical dinner and a movie…it also has the power to change the dynamic of your relationship, giving you all of the tools you need to begin to approach lovemaking and all aspects of your relating in a new and ‘tantric’ way. In a long-term relationship it can be difficult to make sure that you are consistently nourishing your love, connection and sex-life…

Beginner Tantra for Couples offers a different Tantric meditation experience each month so you can effortlessly add a new dimension to your relating on a monthly basis. By attending ‘Beginner Tantra for Couples/ Redefining Orgasm’ you are taking an important step towards transforming your sex life, and perhaps even more importantly, you are taking a step towards an intimacy that few couples allow themselves to experience. This intimacy shifts the texture of everything you do in life and allows you to experience what you have truly been longing for in partnership.

This class is literally a step-by-step guide to support you in learning how to: * free blocks in your own body that are hindering your capacity for pleasure * deeply and intimately connect with your partner in totally ‘out of the box’ (no pun intended) ways * learn a simple ritual that will connect you and your partner on a completely new level….one that can immediately be put into practice when you make love Looking forward to seeing you there!

in love,

Charu

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Self-Hate

August 2, 2008 at 7:20 am · Filed under Personal Stories, Self-discovery, relationship, tantric life, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , ,

In my return to lovemaking, I have had some unique breakthroughs.

The other night my love and I were making love and I felt almost totally numb. I could feel him moving in and out of me, but there was no pleasure, no opening, no softening on my part to really let him in. I struggled with it for a moment trying to ‘let go’…and eventually asked my love to give me some space.

When he slid out of me I began to cry, throw a tantrum really. He handed me a pillow and encouraged me to rage into it with whatever was coming up for me. I began once again to yell, ‘I hate you’, ‘I hate you’, ‘I hate you’…

I wanted to say something else, but those were the only words that came. Over and over again, ‘I hate you’, ‘I hate you’.

Now, the last time this happened, I was convinced that I was having some kind of flashback to abuse from my past, some kind of violation. I tried to feel who I was yelling at so I could gain some clarity.

This time I just focused on the feeling, and allowed the words to come.

After about 15 minutes it became crystal clear to me that the one who all of this anger and hate was directed towards was me. It was me that I hated, me who was violating me and who continues to violate me, me, me, me, me, me.

What a feeling.

The moment I saw it something unlocked inside of me. I told my beloved that it was me all along…he smiled and replied, ‘I know’.

Shit! How did he get the message before me? I hate that!

Shame. Sadness. More Hate.

Then release. A sweet softness over my entire body.

We rested. Then cuddled and caressed one another, and when I was ready, we made love.

It was lovely. I was present. I remembered how delicious this union can be.

…and the journey continues.

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New Territory (part 3)

July 18, 2008 at 1:00 am · Filed under Self-discovery, love, relationship, self-love, tantric life, women's sexuality and tagged: , , , , ,

When my love returned to me from his afternoon of Karate he was open and excited to see me.

He pulled off my clothes and played with me joyfully.

We got hungry and moved into the kitchen to make something to eat. We wound up on the floor kissing and grasping at each other. I felt myself desiring him and opening up, and at the same time I was becoming more and more afraid.

I asked him to place his penis at the entrance of my vagina (without going inside) …I know that this is the moment when I would often shut-down and I wanted to experiment with being in that space that frightens me to see what it reveals.

I held him close to me and began to cry, ‘I just want to get it right…make the right choice..’

This is so typical for me. I often feel motivated by my desire to ‘do it right’ and ‘be good’…so much so that I cannot feel who I am or what I truly want.

‘I’m so scared’

‘I know.’ he said.

I suddenly felt a massive pain in my throat. I grabbed at it wanting relief.

’say whatever you have to say’ he said.

I could not feel any words.

I became hysterical. I wailed and cried until words began to come…

‘get away from me….stop…leave me alone…leave me alone’ I screamed.

I knew that I was not talking to the man before me, but I also did not see or feel who I was talking to. I have no recollection of any kind of sexual abuse in this lifetime.

I did not need a face or a scenario to go with what I was feeling…I just allowed it to come. I knew that I was releasing part of what has been keeping me from opening to my love.

My crying subsided and I relaxed a bit. I felt like a weight had been lifted.

I began to truly feel the purpose of this entire exercise, this time in our relationship.

I know that I am coming closer to myself. I have no idea what happens next.

~charu

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The Other Side of The Story…

June 28, 2008 at 8:27 pm · Filed under Self-discovery, love, relationship, self-love, women's sexuality and tagged: , , ,

With the support of my friends and my beloved Teacher, I have taken a deep breath and begun to look at what I am feeling through this process, beyond my frustrations with my love.

When my Teacher offered this ‘project’ to us, it struck a chord with me because of a couple of things. Throughout the workshop that we were at, I noticed that there were several times when my love wanted to make love with me and I was not feeling open. In these situations, every single time I took him inside of me anyway.

I took him inside of me because I love him, I took him inside of me because I knew I would enjoy myself once I went beyond my resistance, and I took him inside of me because I want more than anything for him to be happy.

One of the times when I had taken him inside of me against the messages of my body, as he was making love to me, he called me on the fact that I was shut down. He got very frustrated with me, pulled out and said that he did not want to make love with me in this way, he wanted all of me to be there when we made love.

The night before my teacher offered this assignment to us, she gave us all a meditation for the evening. The meditation was for the women to spend some time lying on top of their man, covering him with her entire body and just resting and breathing together. She recommended that after this practice we do not make love.

Much to my surprise, I felt in my body a sigh of relief, I would have an opportunity to receive my love, and give to him, and love him, and absorb his loving in a new way. I would have a chance to ‘catch up with myself’ where usually (I was beginning to realize) the lovemaking would often be two steps ahead of what I was truly ready to receive.

Several months before this workshop, I was noticing that more often than not, when I would make love with my beloved, I would shut down the moment before I would take him inside of me. This would manifest by my vagina getting dry (even if I was turned on moments before)…usually I would choose to take him inside of me anyway and the moment he would be in my body, I would open up, my vagina would get wet, and I could receive him fully.

Being the Tantrika that I am, I made a mental note that I wanted to begin to look at why my body was reacting in this way and how I could get more present to myself and my beloved. What was happening for me in these moments and how could I move through this and bring even more opening and receptivity to our relationship and to our lovemaking?

I love my man. I want more than anything to get to a place where I can receive him…I want to bring him ALL of my loving in every moment of our relating.

By ignoring the messages my body has been giving me and moving ahead with the lovemaking when I am not ready, I have been denying myself and denying him. I am only able to bring part of myself to the lovemaking…

It is because of his love that I am waking up to the truth about who I am sexually…making me more of a lover when I am tuned in.

This process is coming from a place of wanting to meet him fully and receive him all the way. In many ways it is an answer to the man who said to me ‘I don’t want to be inside of you when you are shut down like this’.

He is demanding all of me, I am attempting to discover who I am so I can meet him there.

~Charu

** Many of you are getting excited about joining in the conversation about the year off from genital sex. If you have something to say to me please post it as a comment on the blog rather than emailing me or calling. This opens the conversation to the community. Thank you. **

Also…if you are reading this blog and you are in the Los Angeles area you can join in our Tuesday Tantra class! Embody Tantra regularly hosts events open to everyone who is curious about how Tantra can support them in their lives www.embodytantra.com for more information.

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